PhD Dilemma

Assalamualaikum..

Happy weekends u'ols!! Hoping that you guys are enjoying your weekend so far.. 

Now that I've finished my master's degree *Alhamdulillah!*, I need to find institution for my next degree, PhD *Permanent Head Damage??*.. Enthusiastic? Naahh..., not rili.. Thing is I am only given 6 months from endorsement date to find places for my PhD. To be submitted to MSD *or more familiar as HR in other places* for approval.

Honestly..., looking for the institution je dah pening.. Macam-macam benda nak kena consider. Macam-macam orang nak kena pikir.. Tu lah urs truly tengah dilema ni..

Kehendak university, to get a high rank institution. Kalau dapat MIT, lagi gempak! Harvard, Cambridge, Stanford.. Uni yang aku baru bukak website je dah tegak bulu roma.. Belum nak hantar email dekat potential supervisor lagi...

Kehendak Head Of Department, to get a place in US institution. Yeah I heard, US PhD graduates memang berkualiti.. Research wise and teaching wise.. Tapi, kena ingat, 'NO PAIN, NO GAIN'.. Honestly, aku seghiau dengan 'excessive PAIN' that I might need to go through to GAIN the quality.. Master di dalam negara sahaja pun dah hampir mengeringkan my duct of tears. Ini pula nak buat PhD dekat US institution yang memang known as tough and extra challenging! Plus, I sendiri tak yakin boleh lepas GRE exam *Graduate Record Examination = qualification exam to be accepted as post-grad students in US institution*

Kehendak enche suami, kalau boleh dalam negara aje.. I can understand his concern, sapa nak look after our asset *wahh, gaya macam asset juta-juta kau nyahhh, padahal rumah cenonet seketul je & kereta myvi sebijik! Nyampah! Hihi*. And mungkin dia sayang nak tinggalkan kerja & students yang tersayang kat Malaysia nih.. *Hmmmmmmm.....*

Kehendak ayah bonda, to get an institution over the seas but not so far from Malaysia. Hahahaha... Of course their concern is it's too far away, then it will be difficult for them to visit their grandchildren.. Australia is their preferable choice.. Sebab masih dalam range mampu pergi visit naik AirAsia.. Hehehe..

Kehendak hati sebagai bakal PhD student, I just want my PhD journey to be smooth and exciting. A few criteria that I have set in mind for my PhD. Since it is a research based study, so choice of supervisor is SUPER IMPORTANT! I wish I can get a SV that can closely monitor my progress. Guide me at least on the direction to sail. Second, since I'm in engineering field, of course I'm hoping the institution that I want to go is fully equipped with the facilities that I need to use for my research. Third, the research work that I want to do, it would be better if it is in larger group kind of project. Meaning, my research would be small part of larger project conducted in the institution. The advantage of this is, usually the project is more organized, well-planned and funded. Plus, it is easier to discuss with a group of people who understands the project since they are doing the same thing but maybe different part. So kalau blur or stuck, boleh bertanya dan dapatkan advice dengan cepat.

And penipu besar lah kalau I cakap, tak teringin nak cuba belajar luar negara. Get new experience, new adventure, new environment.. Get to know other part of the world culture and living style. Peluang datang sekali seumur hidup. Bukan semua orang dapat peluang gi belajar & duduk luar negara free kan? So why not? Hehehehe..    

Kehendak hati sebagai seorang ibu kepada anak-anak yang sedang membesar, I nak carik tempat yang bagi advantage pada growth anak-anak. US terlalu 'free', japan, korea & germany, english bukan the mother tongue, nanti susah anak-anak nak bergaul, di sana and bila dah balik Malaysia. Nak tempat yang senang carik babysitter or nursery/playschool. So well being anak-anak terjaga dan tak terabai bila Mama sibuk belajar..

In conclusion, too many aspects need to be considered.. Dan macamlah semua tempat dapat offer. Subject to the institution acceptance gak.. And subject to MSD & KPT punya approval lagi.. Haihhh.. Challenging.., challenging... Huhuhuhu... Camano ni? Lom start pon laie..,baru carik tompek, ekau dah kato challenging.. Sok tah bapo gelen pulak air mato nak buang ni.. 

Ya Allah, tunjukkan aku jalan yang terbaik. Permudahkanlah... Amin...

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Post Mortem : Doing Master's Degree

Assalamualaikum,

Catatan hari ini, adalah untuk renungan aku sendiri.  Mungkin satu hari nanti di masa akan datang, di kala aku mungkin dah berjaya mencapai cita-cita menjadi seorang pendidik, aku boleh imbau kembali jerih perjalanan aku menggenggam segulung ijazah Sarjana.dan yang penting,kesilapan-kesilapan yg pernah aku buat masa master,akan dijadikan benchmark utk tidak diulangi utk phd & perjalanan akan dtg.

*dah kenapa ayat skema tak hengat...! saje la..,mood tengah ala-ala puitis gitu.. Tolong layan je... Hihihihi..*

So..., back to the story. I started my master's study in IIUM back then in 2010, June to be specific. In Mechatronics Engineering, Kulliyyah of Engineering. I enrolled a mixed mode program (coursework + research).

From June 2010 - April 2011, I completed my 20 credit hours = 7 subjects coursework. Well, I would say, studying for courses and a mother at the same time, is not an easy task to do. Masa bujang trang tang tang dulu, you can study (doing assignment/completing minor project/preparing for quizzes/preparing for exams and etc) anytime you like. Pagi? Malam? Tengahari buta? Asalkan free and ada will to do so, duduk je kat meja study, bukak buku, and study.

When you're a mother, on the other hand, that privilege is taken dengan serta-merta.. Kena setelkan anak dulu, then baru boleh fikir utk study. Sometimes, baru je bukak buku 5minit, si kecik dah bunyi.. So, terpaksa tinggal dulu and entertain anak. Oh itu kalau si kecil sihat walafiat lah. Tiba pulak time dia demam or tak sihat, level manja @ mengada meningkat ke tahap tertinggi, maka memang tak akan sempat lah sang mama sentuh buku. Bukan setakat buku, nak bawak pencil case keluar dari beg pun belum tentu sempat! So, TIME MANAGEMENT is super important!

LESSON LEARNT #1: Manage your time super efficiently. DON'T PROCRASTINATE!

LESSON LEARNT #2: Allocate a 2hours everyday for studies.completing assignment,study for quizzes,exam etc.last minute study is no longer suitable for a mother.

Then,after 2 semesters doing courseworks,i registered for research.my biggest mistake back then was not looking for supervisor n research title earlier (sem 2 or even sem 1).i seriously started looking for supervisor & title only after I was done with courseworks.well,i lost a lot of time for it.

Then the title.i sucks big time in this part.first,i chose research area that is too virgin in my university.my sv wanted to explore the area,but belum ada foundation.scope of research terlalu general and luas!so I had a hard time narrowing my scope n choosing the method.and I spent a looootttt of time in this stage.scope n methodology.once that was confirmed,then only I started on the implementation.

LESSON LEARNT #4: it is safer n time saving to find a research conducted by a group of student.at least the scope of ur part is known and u can just focus on methodology n analysis.

LESSON LEARNT #5: Choose sv who is really expert in ur chosen research area.so they can advise anytime u need it n feedback on ur work that u has done.

LESSON LEARNT #6: set your consultation time with supervisor (if ur sv doesn't do that) and make sure to strictly stick to the schedule.this is to motivate u to do something for u to report for that meeting.jadi tidaklah leka berjimba sana sini kerja tak buat.huhuhuhu

I started writing my thesis,while doing the research.thanks to some friends who suggested that.it rili helpful.kalau tak,tah jaman bila baru siap...ditambah pula masa tu I pregnant kan faris.agak tergendala gak le,tp I rasa the baby inside my womb ms tu was one of the motivation utk habiskan writing and submit asap.reason being,i tak mau menghadap thesis selepas beranak 2nd child.confirm akan lebih tertekan..

#macam dah panjang sgt.nanti sambung lain post lah.hahahaha

Loads of love, * Farah Jasni*

KHALAS!!!

Subhanallah, walhamdulillah, walailaha illallah, wallah hu akbar...

Praise to Allah.. Finally, I'm done!!! Alhamdulillah..

Just called Center of Postgrad Studies to confirm the status. Alhamdulillah. Good news it is. My thesis has been accepted, and InsyaAllah, my name will be included in October senate endorsement. By that, InsyaAllah, officially, I'm done!!!!! Yeayyyyyyyyyyyyy....

Over excited! Sangat anxious nak habis.. *padahal master je pun!*.. Maybe it's just me.. The journey to earn this degree terasa sangat lah berliku-liku.. Sempat  mengandung & beranak lagi satu okay, kau rasa?? Ha...punya lama nak menghabihkannya tu...!

Ask my husband, how many times that I mentioned I wanna quit and asked him to pay IIUM (my sponsor) for breaching the contract? Ask my Mama, how many liters of tears that I've wasted throughout the journey..

Alhamdulillah, finally, habis juga!

Subhanallah, Alhamdulillah, Thank you Allah for finally letting me get done with this! Thank you hubby, for your patience, your motivation and your sacrifice supporting me throughout the journey. Thank you Fatin & Faris for being Mama's strength! Thanks Mama & Ayah for your endless support and love and motivation. And thanks all for your du'a...

Aku dah habis master weyhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

Alhamdulillah. Boleh mula langkah yg baru utk tangga seterusnya.. Bismillah........

Mungkin aku dah kena mula memohon doa kalian semoga perjalanan PhD aku dipermudahkan... Hihihi... ;p

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Shawl Fever!

Assalamualaikum...

Sejak azalinya,aku memang bukan 'shawl-friendly' punya orang! Tipu, kalau aku tak ada keinginan nak lilit-lilit macam orang buat tu..  Macam comel je tengok orang pakai. Kemas je.. Tapi tah mano silap eh, den pon tak tau..,asal den lilit, jadi cam mumia lak den ase.. *just to indicate the look is scary, instead of cute..Hihihi..*

Lepas tu, aku tengok orang lilit, elok je cover depan belakang *anything that should be covered by hijab lah..*. Bila aku lilit, sini pendek, sana tak cover..  Then Enche Jdai will give that stern look, dengan maksud tersirat 'GO BACK TO THE ROOM AND CHANGE!'.. Huhuhu...

I had once tried using pashmina instead. Kan pashmina lebar dan panjang.. Hasilnya,mmg cover, tapi serabainya la.. Ya rabbi.. Aku sendiri tak sanggup nak tengok.. Kenapa Wardina Saffiyah tu pakai comel je aku tengok?! Haiyo.. I very the confuse you know!

Tak masuk lagi bab 'total time taken to lilit the shawl'.. This thing about shawl memang paling Enche Jdai menyampah la..Everytime I stood in front of the mirror, with the shawl on my head, enche suami gave me that 'tak-payah-la-B,pleaseeeeeee' look...

Guess he hated it because, I will spend more than 30 min trying to get my shawl done, then lari-lari siapkan barang-barang anak or watso eva, then spend another 5-10 min in front of the mirror again, to touch up.. Hahaha.. Berbulu je member tunggu bini dia ni.. Oh jgn dilupakan, touch up lagi di dalam kereta.. Kalau hasil memuaskan hati, tak apa jugak, ini scary je jugak rupanya..Muahahahaha..

Because of that, I prefer to wear instant hijab *a.k.a tudung sarung* or kalau rajin sikit, pakai traditional tudung bawal.. Aku pasrah je la..,mungkin bukan takdir ku utk pakai shawl.. *wahh,dramatis gitu...*

BUT, recently, miracles just happened. Farahiyah Jasni dah pandai pakai shawl yawww.... *Haa....inilah contoh tepat untuk menerangkan maksud 'masuk bakul, angkat sendiri'!*.. Hahaha... Raya kali ni, semuanya baju pakai dengan shawl.. Setakat ni, tak dengar lagi enche abang complain.. *mungkin dia complain dalam hati, but, that doesn't count,sebab tak dilafazkan! Ahaks...* 

It starts when I bought a half-moon shawl from this quite-young lady... She convinced me, that a half-moon shawl is a lot more easier to put on for shawl-wearing-dummy like me.  So I tried..

Butterflies Half Moon Shawl..

Masa ni still tak confident wearing shawl without the aid of inner.. So I used inner with cap inside..But I noticed,the material is so comfortable and senang digayakan.. So I bought plain shawl for Eid..

3 of us.. Faris dalm buai, dah tidur di pagi raya.. (T_T).
Plain shawl ni gabungan long shawl and half moon. Long shawl,but curvy dekat hujung..

After a few trials, dah rasa confident sikit, I tried wearing shawl without inner.. Suprise, suprise, shawl tak jatuh melepek dekat muka ku yang bulat ini.. Boleh muncung di bahagian atas! Saya suka! Saya suka!

Farah, Fatin & Faris... Halfmoon shawl, without inner.. ;p

Half moon again.. Material lembut, tapi transparent sikit,so pakai dengan ninja inner..

Plain shawl, mustard.. Labuh menutup dada, cik abang pun tak bising.. Hahaha..

 

My favorite! Suka sangat combination color and the design..Dan labuh juga...

Shawl yg sama pakai waktu raya,tapi this time tak pakai inner! *Lengan nampak,sebab lengan baju tersinsing. Terpaksa tambah bulatan putih tu utk cover..Hihihihi..*

*Important note: I am sorry if the pictures above, of me wearing shawl, somehow giving you a sore eyes.. Hahahaha.. Mungkin aku perasan yg aku dah pandai pakai shawl. Pada mata aku, dah pandai sangat la tu pakai tu konon.. Kalau pada mata korang, serabai jugak, maafkan daku... Aku tak berniat nak sakitkan mata korang... Muahahaahhaa...*

All of the shawls above, I bought it from this quite-young lady tu lah! Actually,this quite-young lady ni is my cousin sister.. Hehehe.. So tujuan this post sedikit sebanyak nak mempromosikan her online shawl shop, 'oneairin' lah.. Tapi, tak tipu, utk shawl-wearing-dummy macam I ni, memang material dia helpful! Sedikit sebanyak menambah keyakinan diri utk memakai shawl.. Hahaha.. Kalau tak,camano urs truly yg mmg sengal pakai shawl berzaman-zaman ni tetiba boleh pulak pakai shawl kan.. Hahaha..

So kalau ada yg interested nak cuba-cuba dulu, check this quite-young lady punya instagram, "oneairin", or FB page, "oneairin".. Ada banyak color and design yg menarik.. Harga pun berpatutan.. Hehehe...

K lah.. That's all for today... Eh btw, today is Faris' 1st day at Educare.. Nanti I buat post camana keadaan dia on his 1st day, InsyaAllah.... Hihihi..

Wassalam, Bye..

*As always, kita doakan saudara-saudara kita yang sedang berjuang menegakkan panji Islam di seluruh dunia, ok.. Amin, amin, Ya Rabbal Alamin....*

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Kalau Aku Tiba-tiba Jadi Kaya...

Assalamualaikum...

Sangap!! 4 chapters done, 2 more to go.. Orang lain buat correction kejap je, entah mengapa puan Farahiyah Jasni ni lama betul nak siapnya..! Banyak main, itu lah jadinya.. Huhuhuhu..

Korang pernah terfikir kalau tetiba korang dapat duit sedebuk depan mata, nak buat apa?

Kalau aku tetibe jadi kaya kan, aku nak beli ni...

1. 

Halford : Zuzz 4 Baby stroller

Sebab aku kesian dengan Faris, si baby debab aku tu naik stroller Fatin yg dah agak uzur. Pulak tu member berbadan semangat jitu, oleh itu, kadang-kadang roda pun dah mengeluarkan bunyi keruek-kruek tanda betapa seksanya dia nak tanggung weight anak aku tu..Hahaha... Inilah nasib 2nd child, selalu dapat barang terpakai....
Aku pilih Halford Zuzz 4 sebab aku rasa harga reasonable as compared to Quinny Zapp and design lebih stylish *sket la* daripada Maclaren.. Mengikut pandangan mata saya yg agak katak di bawah tempurung bab-bab brand ni ye... Hihihihi

2.

Sony Xperia SP smart phone

 

Smart kan? Smart kan? Aku dengan enche suami berangan nak beli phone ni suatu hari bila kiterang dapat rezeki melimpah ruah dari langit.. Hahaha.. Abang warna hitam, B warna putih.. Sehati sejiwa gitu.. *gediks tahap max.. Nyampah! Hahaha*

Sebab pilih yg ni, sebab enche suami kata phone ni spec dia best.. Boleh? Tak ada pendirian diri sungguh mu ni Farahiyah! And I just need a slightly more sophisticated phone than the one that I own now.. That's all.. Phone sekarang, Alhamdulillah, masih works well, at least boleh la acts as a smart phone (secara basic..). Tapi bila join whatsapp group yg ramai members and banyak conversation, dia pun mula lah nak hang.. Tak kasik can langsung! 

Plus, phone skang tak dak instagram!! Dan aku rasa sungguh ketinggalan zaman sebab tak ada Instagram.. Mama aku pun ada account Instagram! Tapi, entah kenapa rasa ketinggalan pun tak tau.. Bukannya ada siaran berita dunia ke hape kat Instagram tu... Hihihihi...

3.

Avent 2-in-1 steamer and blender

Ini adalah steamer dan blender dalam satu device. Canggih bukan? Mendalah ini adalah untuk memudahkan proses membuat makanan bayi.. Mula-mula kita steam the raw material, such as carrot, apple or whatsoever, then kita terus blend.. Best kan?

Memandangkan Faris dah hampir 6 bulan dan memang dah ready sangat for solid, since dia selalu tenung makanan yg kami makan macam nak telan je dengan sudu-sudu sekali, siap dengan efek air liur meleleh, jadi, si mama ni dah fikir-fikir penyediaan suitable solid food for him. Tetiba terjumpa device ni.. Wallaweii.., kagum seyy.. Senang je.. Terbalik-balikkan je...

Tetapi melihatkan harganya, iaitu 300++, si mama terus merasakan macam not worth it je.. Sebab nak pakai steamer bukan lama sangat. Nanti dah start porridge, tak ada nak steam pun. Lagipun steamer yg ada jadi hiasan dalam kitchen cabinet tu nak buat apa?? Jadi adalah lebih save kalau mama beli new blender je, khas for Faris' food..Lebih jimat.. Tapi ini kisah kalau aku miskin macam sekarang, kalau aku kaya, setakat tiga ratus macam duit jajan je, memang aku angkat mendalah ni.. Confirm! Hehehe...

4.

Korang tau ni apa? Ini adalah rak kasut! Ha...apa ke jadahnya papa kedana sangat urs truly korang ni sampai rak kasut pun kena tunggu rezeki dari langit?? Hahahahaha.. Sekarang kami tak ada rak kasut proper.. Dan kami berangan nak beli rak kasut yg bertutup, so that our house will look neat and tidy from outside.. Sekarang letak kasut dalam open rack, and agak kecil utk capacity kasut kami 4 beranak *macamlah si baby tu pakai kasut beriya..ahaks..*, jadi, macam serabut sket lah.. Walaubagaimanapun, memandangkan aku tengah cerita kalau aku kaya, jadi aku nak angkat rak kasut canggih macam gambar ni.. Boleh pusing-pusing-pusing, tarik-tarik.. Bahagian yg kanan tu leh simpan payung ke, helmet ke, jacket enche suami ke.. Nice kan?


Sebenarnya banyak benda lagi nak beli kalau kaya..

Tengok tu, ada ke ingat nak bagi sedekah juta-juta kat anak yatim ke, tabung palestine ke, syria ke, egypt ke.. Kann??

Sebab tu agaknya Tuhan bagi aku rezeki cukup-cukup untuk kami anak beranak.. Alhamdulillah.. Kalau tidak, tah hape-hape yang dibelinya..

K lah.. good day u'ols... :)

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

So long, dear friend...

Assalamualaikum u'ols..,

By now, guess my dear friend, Izzah and her family is safely arrived in UK... She and her husband, who is also a friend of mine, Farid flied to UK yesterday to do their PhD there in York University, UK..

Sedih la juga.. Entah bila pulak lah nak berjumpa... Tapi tak apa, InsyaAllah, when both of us, eh silap, 3 of us has finished our responsibility to complete our PhD soon, InsyaAllah, we'll be serving Kulliyyah of Engineering,IIUM together..,InsyaAllah.. Boleh jumpa selalu... ;p

So, Izzah @ Cik Jah, take care dear friend! InsyaAllah, I'll pray for ur success hidup jauh di perantauan.. Keep in touch tau! Gonna miss u much... Huhuhu...Farid, jaga kawan aku baik-baik tau! Hehehe.. 

Sahabat dah pergi.. Aku masih lagi berfikir-fikir mana nak pergi for PhD.. Dyana, Fendy, kita nak ke mana pulak? Hehe
Ramai org ckp, dah dapat sponsor, pi lah buat overseas! Ada betulnya.. Macam rugi tak grab this opportunity. Bukan semua org diberikan rezeki. Tapi, wallahu a'lam.. Banyak yg kena diambil kira.. Haihhh.....

InsyaAllah, dah dapat kata sepakat suami isteri, boleh lah mula mencari dengan serious. For now, I just want to focus on my viva and thesis correction first!

Semoga ALLAH permudahkan urusan aku dan sahabat-sahabat menuntut ilmu.. Amin...

On her wedding day..

Zaman muda remaja..The 4 of us, Farid, Izzah, me, and Enche Jdai

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Mengada la teww....

Assalamualaikum....

Morning! U'ols,sejak dua menjak ni,phone i selalu hang.mungkin sebab lately it is heavily used.almaklumla,org berpantang,bila sangap tu belek phone lah!fb,twitter,blog,youtube.semua pun nak bukak lah!memang jadi stalker,tiap status org i baca!hahaha.
*note:situation describe above is only applicable when fatin amani is at school.otherwise,memang mama tak menang tgn layan dua2 permata hatiku ini..haha*

Mungkin juga petanda that i should get a new phone?maybe yg lebih canggih processornya like s3 or note2?or mayb iphone?err,enche jdai?kot-kot enche jdai nak hadiahkan saya phone baru ke?

Wakakakakaka......

Mula la nak mengada tewww *this is how d youngsters spell 'tu' nowadays.guess,d purpose is to enhance effect mengada d situ.hahaha*

Sudah!jangan nak berangan!phone hang dok elok lagi.pakai sampai lunyai.lagipon anak kecik-kecik.phone canggih pon buat jadi lap hingus n mainan depa buat pe! *statement tru experience*

Lebih baik mintak cik abg belanja set shaklee utk kesihatan..lagi berbaloi-baloi! ;p

Preeclampsia

Assalamualaikum,

Today, I would like to share an info related to pregnancy and postpartum disease called "preeclampsia". Why do I want to share this, later I story-story keh.. Hehehe..

What is preeclampsia?

Preeclampsia is a disorder that occurs only during pregnancy and the postpartum period and affects both the mother and the unborn baby. Affecting at least 5-8% of all pregnancies, it is a rapidly progressive condition characterized by high blood pressure and the presence of protein in the urine. Swelling, sudden weight gain, headaches and changes in vision are important symptoms; however, some women with rapidly advancing disease report few symptoms.

Typically, preeclampsia occurs after 20 weeks gestation (in the late 2nd or 3rd trimesters or middle to late pregnancy) and up to six weeks postpartum, though in rare cases it can occur earlier than 20 weeks. Proper prenatal care is essential to diagnose and manage preeclampsia. Pregnancy Induced Hypertension (PIH) and toxemia are outdated terms for preeclampsia. HELLP syndrome and eclampsia (seizures) are other variants of preeclampsia.

Globally, preeclampsia and other hypertensive disorders of pregnancy are a leading cause of maternal and infant illness and death. By conservative estimates, these disorders are responsible for 76,000 maternal and 500,000 infant deaths each year.  

Signs and symptoms

• No Symptoms
• Hypertension
• Proteinuria
• Edema (Swelling)
• Sudden Weight Gain
• Nausea or Vomiting
• Abdominal (stomach area) and/or Shoulder Pain
• Lower back pain
• Headache
• Changes in Vision
• Hyperreflexia 

(Source : http://www.preeclampsia.org/)

Basically, that is some information of the disorder called preeclampsia. Do visit the website yeah? There's a lot of information regarding it that u'ols can gain from there, especially for the expecting mothers.. 

Ok, back to why I suddenly wanna share bout this! Unluckily, I had this disorder when I was pregnant with Faris. Ceritanya begini, Everything went ok *err,not really..Something happened on my 28th week of pregnancy, but will tell bout that later lah!hehe..*, until my regular pregnancy check up with my gynae on 1st of March. Masa check up tuh, my blood pressure dah start spiking high. Reading was 156/88.. Doc conveyed her concern, that my BP was way too high from normal reading. But by then, the urine test was still satisfying. 

So, she checked the baby, Alhamdulillah, baby was ok.. Since she couldn't be sure whether BP spiked hari tu je, or memang dah ada tanda-tanda, she ordered me to write down my BP every 2 days and monitor baby's movement. Oleh itu, I terpaksa borrow BP monitor machine Pn Dyana n Enche Totoi *luckily ada kawan2 yg ada leh pinjam.. Kalo tak,jenuh la nak ulang alik klinik cek BP..Hehehe*..

Since machine tu dah ada kat rumah, I check hari-hari je lah.. Lepas bagitau my mom perihal BP tinggi ni, mama pon menggunakan kuasa veto nya mengarahkan kami anak beranak duduk rumah dia je since then.. Dia susah hati kot I was too tired handling Fatin on my own, since hubby selalu balik malam. Kang collapse sorang-sorang kat rumah dengan Fatin, camano?

So next check up, on 13th, doc pon check lah my BP chart. Memang constantly lebih daripada normal reading. Pulak tuh, urine test hari tu, FAIL! Dah ada protein in my urine.. Dia tanya, ada headache tak? Ada, but not constantly. Ada rasa pedih hulu hati tak? Ada,di malam-malam hari..

Doc dah geleng-geleng. Tapi dia nak check baby dulu.. Alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat, baby masih ok. Kicking like usual. Masa dah scan tu, she checked my legs. Memang lah kaki dah bengkak bagaikan belon dah. Then dia cakap camni:

"Barang baby dah ready dah sume?",

I answered, "Alhamdulillah.. Baru je buat last round shopping yesterday..",

She smiled, the she said,"Mama dah ready?",

I macam terkebil-kebil lah jugak kan. Apakah petandanya ini..?

Then only she said, she wasn't happy with my condition that day and the past week. She said, kalau BP tinggi, dia ok lagi, tapi once dah ada protein in urine, dia dah susah hati. Plus I dah ada other symptoms. And since, I was already 38weeks, and baby dah engaged, she didn't want to take the risk to wait anymore longer, malam tu jugak dia admit kan ward and scheduled for me being induced early in the morning the next day...

Oleh itu, lahirlah Muhammad Faris Rusydi on 14th of March tu... Alhamdulillah, syukur, no complication.. Faris and Mama selamat inspite of being diagnosed to have preeclampsia..Syukur juga sebab the symptoms showed at my last weeks of pregnancy.. Kalau terawal, satu hal pulak kena c-zer and baby pre-mature. Jadi Alhamdulillah la, ngam-ngam choi.. Sesungguhnya Allah tu sebaik-baik perancang kan?

So,k lah.. Next time I post pasal kisah 14 march plak! Wahh..gitu.. Dramatik je tajuk kan?Hahaha..

Kawan-kawan yg expecting, take care of yourself ok.. Harap-harap u'ols tak ada lah symptom preeclampsia ni *Naudzubillah hi minzalik*. Though nampak macam notin, but actually, if severe, mmg boleh membawa maut to the mother & baby. Jadi, do take care ok!

Bye, wassalam.

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Alang-alang....

Assalamualaikum,

Tajuknya alang-alang, sebab memang alang-alang I dah logged in, and dah keluarkan post sebijik, so I nak update lah apa yang terjadi dalam hidup recently... *macam ada je orang nak amik tahu Yah oi..Hahaha...*

• Thesis & Master's degree - Alhamdulillah, syukur atas rahmatNya dan belas kasihanNya, thesis has been successfully submitted pada awal January hari tuh... So next up is waiting for VIVA (is the oral examination related to the research work described in the thesis). Not sure sempat ke tak viva before deliver. hope sempat lah... Perasaan bila dah submit? Syukur sesangat macam mimpi menjadi nyata... Because, ada satu masa yg I rasa I memang tak mampu nak go on and I rili felt like quitting already.. Alhamdulillah, Allah pinjamkan strength to go on, husband n family yg support tak putus-putus, and of course kwn2 seperjuangan yg dalam tak sedar bnyk bagi dorongan for me to keep going n habiskan sampai ke garisan penamat . Thanks a lot jugak for those yg sudi pray for me masa struggle siapkan thesis hari tuh... *wahh, dah mcm ucapan menang award plak nehh..* Tlg doakan my success in viva plak eh... Hehehe.. :)

 

• 2nd pregnancy -  as i'm typing now, I'm 35 weeks pregnant! 5 weeks to go, InsyaAllah.. Physical wise, urs truly memang dah tersangat 'renek' dan 'rendang' *the terms were inspired by my girlfriend, Dyana, ketika suatu hari nampak I dari jauh, sedang berjalan terkedek-kedek menuju ke cafe.. Haha.. * Paham-paham sendiri lah apa maksudnya. Kaki dah start bengkak, but not as bad as my first pregnancy. Baby pulak, alhamdulillah, so far, healthy and well in Mama's womb.. Gender? Jeng, jeng, jeng.. InsyaAllah, kalau diizinkan Allah, I'll be having a boy this time around. Menurut scan begitu lah.. The first time we've got to see the gender, hubby smiled from ear to ear... Hehehe.. Suka member, dapat hero this time, InsyaAllah. So, I said to him, dah dapat sepasang *InsyaAllah..*, I boleh tutup kilang dah la.. Cukup lah, sorang girl, sorang boy.. Haha.. And his answer was simple, 'mana cukup!'.. Cet.. Ingat senang ke nak mengandung + beranak... Hehehe... The expected due date is on 30th march, insyaAllah.. So, frenz, again, I mintak doa kalian utk kelancaran dan keselamatan kami anak beranak, Amin.. 

K lah.. tuh je kot nak update... Haha.. Journal tak siap lagi nih, ada hati lak buat blog post.. ooppsss..

Ok u'ols.. Thanks for reading! Tata titi tutu......

Eh jap, currently selalu dengar lagu ni kat radio.. Sahabat, by Najwa Latif + SyamKamarul + Sleeq. I rasa lagu nih macam relaxing, tapi sweet... So, nak embed lah kat sini.. Hihihi.. For u'ols.. 

*specially dedicated to my dearest SAHABAT, yg share katil dengan I, Enche Mohd Rozaidi.. We started as sahabat, and insyaAllah will always be sahabat sampai tutup mata.. ;p. Lagi satu,caption ini berwarna pink menandakan dalam hati ada taman.. Hahahaha.... *

 

Bye.. Wassalam...

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Ramadhan Mubarak...

Assalamualaikum u'ols!!!

Just wanna wish u'ols RAMADHAN MUBARAK..... 

May this Ramadhan will give us a lot of blessings and forgiveness from Allah Ta'ala... And let us all pray that we'll be someone muchhh better after we've done going thru this training month of ramadhan... Amin... InsyaAllah....

As for me, I have special request from the Almighty for this Ramadhan.. Subhanallah.. 

• I hope I can finish my studies as soon as possible.. 
• I'm praying that HE'll allows my body to be strong and healthy all the way... Coz I believe, Allah will never burden HIS servant with something that the servant couldn't bear.. MasyaAllah.... 

Allah knows the best about every single thing.. 

Things that please us, might not be pleasant to Allah..

And things that are not pleasant to us, might be the key to Allah's blessing and redha...

Therefore, be grateful, and keep faith to Allah...

InsyaAllah, Allah will show the way and make it easier for us...

Amin... Ya Rabbal Alamin....

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

To do List!

Assalam y'ols...

I'm so darn sleepy... Haih... Dah tuh pulak, I got stuck in getting the correct curves for my research's results. Double sangap..  Huwaaghhhhhh *yawning*

Haiyo... So I've decided, nak skip this task first lah, and jump to the other task in my task list! Different thing, maybe my brain will work better.. At least hilang sangap!

Kalau that task pon stuck jugak? 

Hah..., proceed dengan task lain pulak...

In the end, I will be jumping around from task to task.. Wakakakaka..

Tak apalah... At least buat something! Hahaha... Daripada dok sangap termenung depan pc nih... Kehkehkeh...

Berusaha Farah! :)

Credit to : http://www.lifehack.org/articles/productivity/back-to-basics-your-task-list.html

Bye y'ols.. Wassalam..

 

   Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Depressed...

Assalam y'ols...

How are y'ols doing? I wish y'ols are in great shape, Amin..

Honestly, I'm in depression.. Major factor, "STUDIES".. Tho, some small small things might add up the level of depression, but still, the main reason is study.. 

Semua benda jadi serba tak kena.. Everything went wrong.. Allah hu akbar...

So these few weeks, I was busy looking around things that might, y'know.., reduce the level of depression that I'm suffering.. Kang kena hypertension pulak! Anak baru satu...

But pusing punya pusing, tak jumpa lah! Nak shopping *people said it usually works, especially for women.. ahaks...*, cannot... now got no extra money maa.. need to spend wisely! So shopping, pangkah!

Holiday? Again...no.. Requires budget as well... Lagipun, enche suami susah nak cuti.. Pangkah juga..

I tried spend some time watching movies lah, pi sana lah, pi sini lah.. Ended up I wasting my time looking for the things that can help me release my stress, and yet stress is still there! Malah bertambah-tambah lagi sebab time is running out..

One sweet day, I terpanggil to recite Al-Ma'thurat.. Dah lama I tak amalkan.. *TERUK LA MUNG NI FARAH!!!*.. I always let 'it's hard to find time' as excuse! But actually masa tuh ada, I yang pemalas! Huhuhu...

Oh..back to Al-Ma'thurat.. At the end of the ma'thurat, there is one du'a.. When I recited the translation of the du'a, I stunned and broke into tears.. Subhanallah.... Just the right du'a and the right phrases that I needed most...

Here goes some of the translation that made me fell into tears:

Ya Allah, kurniakan kami cara hidup yang jitu dan unggul, selamat dari mala petaka. 

Kami mohon kecukupan yang tidak sampai kami terpaksa meminta jasa orang lain..

Berikan kami iman yang sebenarnya sehingga kami tidak lagi gentar atau mengharap orang lain selain daripada Engkau, atau menyembah selain daripada Engkau..

Kembangkanlah lembayung rahmat-Mu kepada kami, keluarga dan anak-anak kami, serta siapa sahaja yang bersama kami..

Jangan Engkau biarkan nasib kami ditentukan oleh diri kami sendiri, walau sekelip mata sekalipun, walau sekadar masa yang lebih pendek dari itu..

Wahai Tuhan yang paling mudah dan cepat memperkenankan pinta...

Pusing sana sini mencari ketenangan, sebenarnya ketenangan itu datangnya bila kita bergantung dengan Allah... Susah payah mencari tempat untuk mengadu, sebenarnya, kita hanya perlu menadah tangan dan mengadu pada Allah ta'ala... And kita selalu tak perasan, sebenarnya, tiap kali kita angkat takbir, 'Allah hu akbar' dan mula solat, kita dah berdoa dah... 

'Iyya kana' budu wa iyya kanastain' (AlFatihah, verse 5)

Kepada Engkau kami menyembah dan kepada Engkau kami memohon pertolongan..

Allah hu akbar.. Kenapalah leka dan negligence sangat selama ni? 

True, the problem won't solve in a blink without effort from us.. But at least, if we can do work with peaceful heart and mind, InsyaAllah, things will be easier to solve.. InsyaAllah.. 

'Ya Allah, aku menadah tangan dengan penuh rasa kehambaan, memohon petunjuk dan pertolongan daripada Mu yang Maha Kuasa.. Bantulah aku harungi kesusahan dan kemelut ini.. Engkau lah Tuhan, Engkau lah Maha Pembantu dan Engkaulah tempat aku mengharap...'

Cerita keluar topik : One night, mama was sad. So mama cried. And Fatin Amani was there, seeing her Mama cried like a child. She came closer to her Mama, wiped Mama's tears and said, "Mama..nanan nanesh tau.." (translate : Mama, jangan nangis tau). Mama smiled, but tears pouring down even heavily.. Mama was touched, that this small little creature now understands that Mama is sad and even try to console her Mama not to cry.. Thank you Allah, for giving me this little thing to cheer me up... Fatin Amani, Mama love you sooooo much.....

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Jihad

The sailing is not smooth...

Yet, I still have to move on..

 A wise man once said,

'Seeking for knowledge is JIHAD....' 

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Aku betul...Engkau salah...

Aku kata, aku yang BETUL

Kau pulak kata, kau yang BETUL,

Habis, siapa yang BETUL,

Kau Betul?Ke aku yang BETUL?

Aku kata kau yang SALAH,

Kau pun kata, aku lah yang SALAH,

Habis, aku ke kau yang SALAH,

Hish, naik serba salah..

Apa yang dah jadi?

Kenapa mesti menuding jari?

Mesti ke menang kan diri sendiri?

Tak boleh sama-sama kita fikiri..

Jangan jadi extremist

Cuba kita jadi optimist

InsyaAllah, akan ada gerimis 

*hahaha...I dah tatau nak bantai apa...*

Salah betul,kita ke tentukan?

Siapa kita, dah naik taraf jadi Tuhan?

Kau saudara aku...

Aku saudara kamu...

Bukan kah kita sembah Tuhan yang Satu..

Jadi, sudah-sudah la tu...

Sudah la tuh bertegang urat

Buang yang keruh,ambil yang jernih,boleh buat?

Eh...out of the blue terletak pulak gambar warna kuning nih.. Ha..ha..tak tau! ;p

 

 

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Shame,,,Shame.. Tak Malu..

Assalamualaikum y'ols...

Ha...today I nak buat post tak malu sket... Ooopppsss..

Check this video out...

Jeng...jeng...jeng... Title macam hot and spicy je.. 

Ha...have y'ols watched it? Hehehehe... 

Interesting kan y'ols???

And y'ols noticed tak... The video makers and the casts are all 'budak mentah'.. Teenagers y'ols!!!

*Tho in this video they might be overly condemned those who are not covering the aurah, but excuse them for that (but what they said is true indeed..kan,kan? hehehe..).. They are TEENAGERS..memang nature teenagers ada extra emosi.. hehehe...*

Watching this, make me wanna say this to myself...

"Shame...shame....tak malu....",

Even the teens have awareness, guts and effort to say this... And look at me.. keep saying, 

"Semoga Allah buka kan hati mereka..."

And in fact, there are quite numbers of YouTube videos yang actually made by teenagers but preaching about good things and dakwah y'ols.. 

And for that, I think they are "AWESOME!!!"...

Alhamdulillah... Muda-muda dah ada kesedaran..

So maybe y'ols wanna surf around and check for ur self for this adik-adik awesome.. Do subscribe them... 

• IniAnwarHadi
• MatLuthfi90
• aimanazlan

 If u ask me, it's the best way to listen to tazkirah (reminder) in ur busy day.. Coz guess what, we might feel we are TOO busy to attend majlis agama/usrah/halaqah and etc, but suprisingly, we do have time to surf FB, YouTube and etc.. 

*Maybe this presumption is not true for y'ols..., kat I je.. I tau y'ols baik-baik orangnya.. hehehe...*

So, by watching this, we can muhasabah ourselves and think about the things that the adik-adik awesome sembangkan, sambil dok congak, jauh sangat dak beza umur kalau den nak buat jadi menantu... Ooooppppssss, gitu.... HAHAHAHAHAHA....

K lah y'ols...

Wassalam....

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Di Mana Silapnya...

Di mana silapnya..

Bila jawapan yang ku cari

Tidak ku temui..

Di sana, atau di sini..

Masih tidak ditemui..

Salah tempat mencari?

Atau salah soalan diberi?

Haih...tak mengerti

*wahh..., pandai puisi lak I nih u'olss.. (tetibe kagum dengan diri sendiri..tah pape!)*

Di mana silapnya..

Bila segala yang dibuat

Macam tak dapat berkat

Sangkut tersekat-sekat...

Salah cara membuat?

Atau memang tak berkat??

Haih...pale otak dah sendat..

Di mana silapnya..

Bila diri macam dah tak ada motivasi

Rasa macam nak berhenti

Tapi sapa nak bayar gantirugi..

Haihh..aje gila kamu ni..

Istighfar...berdoa..dan sambungi....

Ya Allah..., hambaMu yang lemah ini memohon petunjuk.... 

Permudahkan lah Ya Allah....

Enlighten me.. Ya Allah...

Show me the way.., Ya Allah...

I'm weak, I'm stupid and I'm lost..

Permudahkanlah Ya Allah...

Clock is ticking fast... Time is running out.. 

And I'm still here....

Still here....,wondering... 

Allah hu Akbar...

 

 

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Annoying Songs..

Assalam u'ols...

Happy Friday.. First of all, izinkan I marah diri sendiri sekejap..

"Cik kak, dan lagi nak update belog pula!!! Joint angle trajectories salah lagi tuh!!!"

Hahahaha... *macam orang kurang siuman... Saje... Nak menyedapkan hati sendiri.... Huhuhu*

Ok, quick one..

Just now I drove back to Mama's. My baby sister was sick.. And she's alone at home. Mama & Ayah tak ada. So kasihan pula budak sakit itu tak ada lunch. So as a very good and adorable Along *and i bet if she read this, she'll be like, 'o plzzzz, u make me feel like wanna throw up!'... Hahahaha..*, I bought and sent her some food for lunch.. Baik bukan?? *Boooo....again!*

So while driving, I heard some songs over the radio... And I found this one lagu..., is verrryyyy annoying.. At least for me lah...

And the lagu is entitled "Angkasa" by Diandra Arjunaidi.. No offense ya the fans.. This is just my personal opinion... Hey, this is a democracy country what!! Hehehe..

The voice is.., hmm.., suara 'bajet-Yuna-tapi-tak-jadi', song's composition is sucks and tak thrill and the most annoying part, lyrics macam ke hape.. 

"ke angkasa
dan kembali
ku tetap berada disisi
cinta kita bagaikan fantasi
kau lah yang ku miliki
kau lah yang ku mencari
selama-lamanya"

Kaulah yang ku mencari??? 

I dunno, I think something is totally wrong about that sentence.. Hahahaha...

Then, right after that song, keluar pulak lagu "Love Story" by Melly Goeslow and Irwansyah.. Nih plak macam out of tune. And suara yang kedengaran hanyalah suara ke'SENGAU'an.. 

After that 2 annoying songs, I shut off the radio... 

Apakah? Mungkin sengaja the radio station pasang lagu-lagu "pelik" masa Jumaat prayers...??

Hahaha.. 

Bleeding ears... 'Farah, u're exaggerating again!'. Hahahaha... (source : google)

K, bye.. Wassalam  *I malas nak pikir ayat penutup....*

Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Incredible Hulk

Assalam u'ols..

Hari nih rasa macam kehijauan... And badan macam rasa membesar.. And hidung macam ada keluar asap-asap.. Iras-iras makhluk kat bawah ni...

Incredible Hulk

 

Seriously, I pissed off!!! Hari ini attempt kedua contractor UNIFI datang rumah untuk install the precious unifi kat teratak kecil kami ni.. And kali kedua juga usaha GAGAL!!!

Pffft...pfffttt.........

First time, tab log was missing... *memang khianat pengkhianat yang mencuri tab log rumah kami itu!!*, and this 2nd time, usaha gagal lagi sebab cable pula jahanam... *jahanam betul!*

Yang buat I nak jadik incredible hulk sangat nih, sebab dah pernah report pasal kerosakan regarding this phone-internet-line thingy to the management, and they took their own sweet time to repair it *sebulan hoccay???*, yet, ada problem lagi!!! Dah sekali harung buat tuh, cek la balik segala menda to make sure everything ok, KAN??? Nih dah kena buat kerja banyak-banyak kali.. Menyusahkan kami, menyusahkan contractor UNIFI dan menyusahkan diri sendiri.. Kan??

Now my order to UNIFI return balik...2 kali dah! Nanti I kena call balik UNIFI to confirm and re-schedule appointment.. Not to mention the pressure calling the management to follow up on the status of the repair work and almost everytime, *except for the last call* was frustrating!! 

FRUST SUNGGUH!!!! MARAH SUNGGUH!!!!!

Disebabkan I marah, memang I dah naik hantu mengamuk dekat rep of the management team of my apartment ni tadi.. Guess it's been a while since I mengamuk macam tuh! Seriously u'ols, I pissed off!!! Geram sangat...

And that guy leh pulak cakap "Sub-con saya tengah busy..",

Heh, silap hari bulan la nak berlawak dengan saya enche.. Terus I maki dia kat situ jugak! I rasa satu level leh dengar I mengamuk kot! Di depan budak-budak contractor UNIFI tuh gak I maki rep tuh..

Banyak lah dia punya busy! Dah la salah dia buat keje tak betul-betul, pastuh boleh nak bagi alasan busy pulak bila orang complain?? 

Baru nak terkebil-kebil bijik mata...

I don't care, I want this to be fixed in 2 days time!!! 

Apa motif tulis sini pun tatau.... Bukannya u'ols leh wat pape.. Huhuhu.. Tolong dengar je lah ek!

K lah... Bye, wassalam..

p/s -  This blog was written and published thru a prepaid broadband connection that we have to purchase since management buat taik dengan kami membuatkan kami tak leh nak pasang UNIFI!! Grrrrr......

 

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*

Sleepppyyy Friday...

Assalam u'ols...

Huaaaghhh....*yawning*..

Seriously, I'm so sleepy right now.. Nak pikir simple conversion pun tak leh ni.. Busy yawning dari tadi! Haduss..

Btw, pejam celik, dah end of march dah u'ols! Huhuhuhu... In a blink! Cepatnya masa berlalu..

Actually, tak tau nak cerita apa.. Oh ya, Alhamdulillah, we have moved in to our house early of march hari tuh.. On 2nd of March.. So, almost a month already la hidup berdikari di rumah sendiri.. *poyosss..* 

Padahal baru je malam tadi angkut Fatin balik rumah Mama sebab malas nak masak since enche suami balik lambat.. Berdikari hape nye! Wakakakaka..

So my life after staying in our own house, life becomes miserable, hectic and tiring! Pagi-pagi dah macam-macam benda to think of. Plus dengan serabut dengan progress research yang macam kura-kura lagi... Hahahaha...

However, suprisingly, I found it membahagiakan and enjoying! Rasa macam adult la.. Jaga rumah sendiri, masak dengan kelam-kabut nya sebab 'cik adik manis' memang dengki bila mama start pegang senduk.. Ada aje perangainya.. But I take that as a challenge la..

Alhamdulillah, after a month, I think we are coping with the changes.. 

Fatin was a bit cranky at first.. Tunjuk perasaan sebab there's  no one to entertain her while I was busy cooking or doing other house chores and her ayah was not yet home... MasyaAllah, memang menguji kesabaran lah.. But pity her as well.. Culture shock kot! Sebab kat rumah nenek dulu *macam dah lama sangat la...kunun..*, ramai yang nak melayan dia.. 

Kot Mama masak ke, buat kerja rumah ke, nenek ada melayan, atok ada, and segala makcik pakcik ada.. So when she was left to play alone, dia tak dapat menerima kenyataan la tuh.. Hehehe..

But I guess, things are better now.. It's either she's coping, or I'm better in handling the situation now.. *ayat perasan..boooooo... ;p*

Anyway, Alhamdulillah, syukur nikmat yang diberikan oleh-Nya.. I'm now feeling a bit matured since dah ada tanggungjawab menguruskan rumahtangga sendiri macam most of u'ols gak.. Sebelum nih dok menumpang dengan parents *dengan manjanya* tak terasa sangat macam 'orang besar'... Boleh?? Ahaks..

So k lah.. Oh, I put on some of the pictures teratak kecil kami.. Plz excuse the 'sepah'ness... Saya surirumah tangga yang baru belajar.. So rumah sepah sket! Wakakakaka.... *aci tak bg alasan tuh?*

The living

Nampak tak budak yang tengah swimming dengan pelampungnya kat tengah rumah tu? >.<

The dining...

The kitchen.Tidy and neat kan...Sekejap! Tengok dulu gambar bawah

This is how it looks now! *tekad balik ni kena kemas dapur!*

The other part of cabinet

Sekarang beginilah rupanya!

Master-Ji punya bilik!

Fatin Amani's territory..

Buaian masih tidak dilupakan! Hehehe

Ohh...,ini adalah 2 makhluk bertoncet yg hidup bersama-sama dengan saya di rumah itu!

K lah u'ols.. Have a nice weekend! :)

Wassalam...

 Loads of love, 

* Farah Jasni*