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The fact is I just dunno what to write.. Just wanna break the silence..

Sorry babes!! Been busy fighting with 'sicknesses' last week.. So, no time left for blog.. Hihihi..

Will post something meaningful next time..
(Bajet blog den ramai yg jenguk la... Keh keh keh...)

Nway, thanks for dropping by... Hihihihi...

Swinging Mood....

Salam...

Hey all... Lama tak tulis blog.. Ada je 2,3 drafts,tapi tak dan nak abiskan.. Hahaha.. Bajet busy gile la tuh konon.. Tah pape..

Pagi nih ase macam angin sudah naik saya punya kepala. Sangat tak dak mood.. Sangat tak puas hati.. Dan macam2 sangat lagi.. Mungkin disebabkan faktor cuaca yg tidak menentu skang ni.. Jap panas, jap hujan.. Jadi mood I pon directly proportional to the weather la agaknya... Wahh, bahaya...

Banyak menda yg membuatkan I ase bengang je.. Wonder why, tetibe kesemua kebengangan yang ada dalam hati bergabung kuasa untuk menunjuk perasaan hari nih..

Jadi blog nih, I nak meluahkan perasaan... Melepaskan geram.. Aci??

I bengang bile ada manusia yg tidak gheti2 nak mengukur baju di badan sendiri... Kalo tak mampu tuh, buat la cara tak mampu kan? Agak-agak la bile wat decision tuh... Lepas tuh menyusahkan org len bile sempit.. Tah pape...
Org len plak nak kena bersusah payah tunggang terbalik keje nak menyenangkan org yang tak sedar diri tuh! Org len tuh pon ada gak life sendiri.. Patut ke dia mengorbankan life dia utk bersusah payah utk org len? Tak patut kan???? Tak patut kan???
Sometimes, human's mentality are weird.. Especially these "special cases human being".. They are sooooo complicated and very hard to understand.. But, if you 're destined to be among them, and you have to adapt (like it or not), then terpaksa la kuatkan mental & fizikal utk tempuh kehidupan.. Haishhh...

p/s - frenz, rili, u don't need to understand what am i merapu about... just nak meluahkan perasaan terpendam... Huhuhu..

Lagi, I bengang dengan sesetengah org yg suka sangat nak berlagak tak tentu pasal.. You are rich, fine! You have a lot of money, fine!!! SOOO????
Do you really need the world to know that you kaya and makan kat Kenny rogers ari2, or makan kat restoran mewah just for supper... Sume pon nak citer kat FB ke??? Serious man, is it rili necessary? Bile makan kat mamak stall tuh tak de lak nak tulis kat FB... Like "Having lunch at mamak.. Nak makan apa ek?"..
Bile pegi standard restaurant tuh, cehh, siap amik gambar bukti (dengan phone canggih yg u bangga2 kan sangat tuh) and put it up at FB.. Come on la man.. Kengkawan I bersepah yg lagi kaya dari U (I tak la,sbb I mmg papa kedana),tapi takde la berlagak pon... I think, you nih ada syndrome desperately-need-people-to-praise-you-are-man-with-money kind of person kot...
Korang annoyed tak dengan segolongan manusia yg camnih? Ke i je annoyed? Hahaha.. Mungkin I je kot.. Sebab I dengki.. Wakakaka...

Ohh, anak dara I dah bangun pule.. K lah... Cukup2 la meluahkan perasaan...

Thanks korang sebab baca.... Hehehe.. As I said earlier, you don't need to understand pon...Hehehe..

Bye..

I'm Vibrating....

Salam,

Hey all.. Been a while tak update blog.. Huhuhu.. Sungguh tak istiqamah.. Been busy la.. With studies and stuff..

Anyway, why am I vibrating??? Am vibrating coz subject MECHANICAL VIBRATION sangat meng'vibrate' kan saya dengan kesusahan nya... Hadoi...

Today, I'm staying at the lab, to study and do the assignment.. Mode INSAP, sebab I messed up with the 1st quiz... 2/10 kowt!!!

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selingan...kowt -> adalah ejaan budak2 zaman sekarang.. Honestly, don't understand why they purposely add up some alphabet in the spelling..?? Maybe to make sure the impact is there?? KOWT!! Hehehe..
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Back to the vibration.. I personally think, this subject is a combination of everything.. System Dynamics, Mechanics of Material, Signal & System, Control system (pardon me for those yg tak bape nak paham pemenda yg I ngarut nih.. Those are some of the subjects in mechatronics engineering masa I undergrad dulu..). It's like, a subject with everything!!

Hadoi....

Dah la today is the last day of adjustment period (if I want to drop the subject..). But having 2nd thought, dropping Vibration and taking Mechatronics System Design (b'coz this is the only option left!) dengan Dr. tuuuutttt itu, hmm..., naaah.., I don't think so.. So apa yg perlu saya buat ialah, WORK HARDER!!!!!

Maybe I need to allocate more hours for Vibration... So that I can feel the Vibration.. Huhuhu.. Jangan sampai vibrating to resonance frequency and make me collapse of heart attack dah la..

Oh ya.., did you guys know, that, each one of us have our own resonance frequency.. In fact everything in this world has its own resonance frequency. And if, the our body resonance frequency, match with some other thing's resonance frequency, it can cause harm to us?? Like, heart attack... Sounds scary right?

Wowowowo...going to deep into vibration Farah.. Hehehe..

K lah.. Nak balik lah.. 'Vibrating' to see my lil' girl... Ah sudah..,sume menda dah masuk perkataan vibrate tuh! Hahahaha..

Bye.. Wassalam..

Example of vibration

Let's solve this together-gether.. What say you?? ;pOh..this is a good vibration.. Based on Mr Google, this is called 'A Vibration of Love'..(Oh vibration yg nih I loike... Hehehe)

Perfect Nightmare....

Sometimes we fight
Sometimes I cry
Why don't I
Just tell him goodbye
Sometimes I should
But sometimes I don't
Build up the strength to
Say that it's wrong
Sometimes I hate
Sometimes I love
Sometimes I hurt
Sometimes I don't
Sometimes I wait
For him to change
But it's okay
I've disguised the pain
And I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love
With this man
Yeah

Keep telling myself that it's not worth it
I already know I don't deserve it
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
So when will I wake up and scream
No way
But if it's from you I don't mind hurting
This is my perfect nightmare
Perfect nightmare

Sometimes I keep my cool
Sometimes I let him know
Sometimes I even pack my bags to walk out the door
Sometimes I feel safe
Sometimes I really don't
Sometimes I promise that i'm ready to let him go
But I don't ever wanna leave him alone
They say i'm brainwashed but i'm in love
With this man


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Berdua-duaan..

Salam..

Yesterday, on the last day of Dec, hubby n I went to KL. Just the 2 of us.

At 1st, I wanna bring Fatin along. But she is just recovered (in fact not fully recover pon..) from fever, so Mama didn't allow.. So Fatin was left at home.. Sob..sob.. Nasib baik she was sleeping when we left, and woke up only after we were back home.. So she never found out that her parents left her out.. hihihi..

Actually I wanted to buy some text books. Carik kat Darul Kutub, out of stock, so the mission was to find the books la..

Tapi yang I nak story nih, bukan pasal buku.. Pasal us jalan berdua-duaan. Hahaha.. Rasanya, dah lama tak dating dengan hubby sejak Fatin ada.. Ye lah, gi mana-mana, mesti nak angkut Fatin sama...

But yesterday, kami berdua-duaan je.. Cehh, we were holding hands like newly wed you.. Dalam book store yang jalan sempit-sempit pon pegang tangan tuh! Romantik, wa cakap lu... Hahaha..

Yang sebenarnya, dah lama tak jalan holding hands with hubby. Mana tak, one of us have to push the stroller or dukung her. Gaya camana nak pegang-pegang tangan.. Hahaha..

I rasa, we need to find a way to enable us to hold hands even when Fatin is around... Hmmm.... (*thinking......*)

Haha... Apa ke jadah la tulis entry pasal holding hands nih?

Oh btw, plz don't perceive it wrongly. I'm not saying,hanging out without Fatin is better than when she's around. That is soooo NOT true. Jalan-jalan without her is like berjalan with spoiled tudung. Just want to do things fast, and go home.. Haha... Macam tuh la perasaan nye..

Anyway, korang cane? Especially friends who are married with child. Holding hands cam baru-baru kawin dulu tak bila hanging out with your lil one along? Meh ar share kat saya...

p/s - Baru anak satu, dah kena pikir cara pegang tangan. So kalo dah bertambah, cane lak gayanya.... Wakakaka...

Bye-bye 2010, Welcome 2011..

Salam U'olls..

Another plus minus 60minutes for us to stay in 2010.. Then we are going to be in a new year of 2011...

So, before 2011 comes, I wanna list down the interesting events of 2010...

Of course, the most memorable ever is to have FATIN AMANI yang sangat comel (mama perasan) in 26th Feb 2010. Alhamdulillah, I'm so grateful to Allah for giving me the lil angel... She is such a blessing for me, in fact for the whole family...

1st day of her life.. 26th Feb 2010

Fatin dear, mama love you so much... Mama pray for you every single second for you to be healthy and have a good life, Ameen..

2ndly, To be part of IIUM family again, as a student and InsyaAllah as an academician later on… Again, I'm so thankful to Allah for giving me the 2^nd chance for me to be offered the fellowship scholarship by IIUM. Why 2^nd chance? Panjang cite nye.. Hehehe.. Tak dela.. Actually, after graduated in 2007, I did applied for academic trainee position (what I am now la..) at IIUM. And Alhamdulillah, I was offered. But masa tuh, I have started to work as a Test Development Engineer in Flextronics Shah Alam (such a beautiful experience though…Miss that place and my colleagues there.. Huhuhu..). So, I dah syok kerja, having the opportunities to improve my hands-on skill, so I neglected the IIUM offer.. Sedar-sedar, dah lepas the validated time for the offer. Kira terlepas la the 1^st opportunity.

So in this year, right after the confinement (in fact belom cukup 40days pon), I went to IIUM to send my 2^nd application. The intention is actually to cuba nasib je.. Coz masa tuh I dah dapat offer from UiTM as the Tenaga Pengajar Muda (something like Academic Trainee in IIUM gak la..). Alhamdulillah, I regarded UiTM's offer as rezeki jugak! Oh in fact, about the same time of the UiTM offer, I received another offer as Research Officer for Agensi Angkasa Negara. Haha.. It was on February 2010. Sometime before Fatin was born.. memang rezeki melimpah ruah masa tuh.. Bersyukur sangat.. Bak kata orang, rezeki anak dalam perut… Hehehe

However, despite of the offers, I was still hoping, that maybe I can get the IIUM Academic Trainee… No heart feeling, tapi memang I prefer to serve IIUM rather than other Uni.. Hehe..

So my friend, Dyana, and I, gigih la pi IIUM untuk hantar application. Yang bestnya, masa tuh, both of us were in confinement! Dyana at that time baru a week after D&C sbb miscarriage at her 1^st pregnancy ( L ).

Mungkin berkat kegigihan both women-in-confinement (cam lawak term nih!Haha) nih, Allah bagi rezeki kat kami.. Alhamdulillah, we were both offered!

So, the offer of Academic Trainee in IIUM, I would say the 2^nd most blissful rizq that Allah had given me in the year of 2010..

**************ooopppsss, break sekejap.. Fatin bangun, nak nenen… Hehehe…***********************************

Ok, I'm back… ;p

2010 is the starting year of my journey as a studying mama & wifey…! And YES, it is very challenging. So not the same with studying as single lady with no commitment and responsibility. It's not that I'm complaining ek.. In fact, I'm grateful that having the chance to experience this!

A lot need to change! The attitude, the discipline, the level of focus and passion towards study and of course, the most important over all, the TIME MANAGEMENT!! (and sadly, I masih fail bab nih.. Haishh.. Masuk list azam new year.. Huhu).

There is times when I need to choose either to be a mama or a student in that particular time.. Hahaha.. Example, I have midterm the next day and need to stay up late to revise. And it is sooo happened that Fatin chooses that particular night to be cranky and tak nak tido and only me can let her calm.. So, I have to choose to be with her and neglect my revision, or vice versa... Haaaa…, jeng,jeng,jeng..! Challenging kan?

If u'oll in that situation, what will u'oll do? Believe me, the situation happened and in my case, I chose my daughter of course!! Sebab tuh la midterm I kantoi… (alas an…. Sapa soh tak study awal! Back to basic, TIME MANAGEMENT! Haha).

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   Super-Mom, perhaps??? Hehehehe....

   
   

   Ok, I dah penat nak tulis panjang2… hehehe.. 2010 is also..

   
   

   * Starting point of my breastfeeding journey.. Mestila kan.., sebab Fatin pon was born this year.. Hopefully the journey continues until she is 2.. May Allah permits me to do that.. Ameen..

   
   

   * My beloved grandmother started to show sign of Alzheimer and the other grandmother had stroke attack…. :(

   
   

   * Started to berjinak-jinak with online shopping…

   
   

   * The year of I 1^st created this blog!!! ;)

   
   

Actually, there are still some events happened in 2010, but can't remember it now.. But I guess, I listed quite a lot already.. Cukup la tuh.. Hehehe..

So, with all the memorable events, I would like to say, BYE-BYE 2010… And 2011, welcome aboard!! May 2011 will bring us more blessings from Allah and healthy and happy life ahead, InsyaAllah…

HAPPY NEW YEAR, U'OLLS!!!!!